Are you ever surrounded by a million people , but still constantly feel alone ? That’s been me for most of my life . Although I know it is hard to believe , I have always felt like a Black Sheep amongst my peers . People love me and I love people, but I never found a place where I quite fit if that makes sense . Clearly, I was not made to fit in . 1 Peter 2:9 says, “But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light.”
I am happy to say, that I am pretty peculiar . In order to get exercise I spend any little spare time I have long boarding. Yes, long boarding! I could movie hop all day, or watch every X-Men movie from from X-Men to X-Men: Apocalypse while eating Domino’s pizza and a Double Chocolate Chip Brownie from Papa John’s. I like going on nature walks and absorbing the suns rays . I love listening to music and comparing old school to new . I enjoy visiting museums and learning about history , but I also like reading about my history and brainstorming on ways to make a difference. I love standing up for those who don’t have a voice. I know , some of you are like she went from movies to public defender. Yes, I did ! In my head , I am the next Angela Davis and I just want to fight for my people . But then in reality the only thing I find myself fighting is sleep .
Currently , I am a political science major and I work a full time job . My long term goal is to go to law school , defend children’s rights, and open up nonprofit organizations such as group homes . How will I do it ? That is a question that I ask myself daily , but I am determined to find balance in my life so that I can ultimately meet these goals . Since I was a young girl I always stood up for what was right , even if it meant standing alone. I always knew that I wanted to defend those who could not defend themselves. I remember being in middle school and petitioning my school administration because they wanted us to sit in assigned seats during lunch . So many people thought that I was crazy , but I believed in being fair so I fought for change . Then , when I got to high school I wanted to shake things up and give the entire senior class a voice so I ran for Vice-President of the Senior Class and won . I was able to beat someone who had held that position for the past three years. It was a huge victory .
With all that being said , my life gets pretty hectic. However, my hope is that by taking this journey with me you all will be able to grow with me . I will be sharing past life experiences as well as current ones . There will be stories of faith , but there will also be my views on some of the things going on in our society . This blog will allow you to learn who Jackie really is and why I consider myself a giant .
The other day I had some questions about grace, so I started doing a little research . In layman turns grace is simply mercy, not merit. Grace is when you thought you lost your debit card for the tenth time this year, but your coworker placed it under your keypad . Okay , what about this ? Grace is something like when you forgot to study for a test, but at the last minute your class is cancelled and the test is rescheduled . No, no, no , I got it ! Grace is when you are on probation and you just know you’re going to fail your drug test , but God still allows you to pass it . Grace is that favor that God gives us during a time of need and distress . Grace is His unconditional love for us although we are undeserving .
Grace is the foundation on which the Gospel was built ! When God sent His only Son to die on that cross , that was the biggest example of grace that the world would ever know . John 3:16 says , “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” YES ! So what I am telling you is that although Jesus did no wrong , healed the sick , and raised the dead He still had to hang on that cross and sacrifice His life for you and for me. That is grace.
God shows His unwavering love for us from day to day . Next time you are wondering how something happened be sure to remember God’s grace .
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.
This scripture was the first scripture that I ever learned and I am thankful because through every situation I have carried it in my heart . No matter what things looks like God has a plan for your life. When trials and tribulations come we often find ourselves asking, “God why?” Trust me , I know ! However , God is so strategic that even when we do not understand or see Him working , we must believe that He is working because He has a plan . This scripture does not mean that you will not go through tests, but it reassures you that with God there is hope . Often times we have to go through the shaking , the beating , and the pressing in order to get to that brighter and better future . Sometimes God has to make us uncomfortable in order to realign us and make sure that we are walking in His plan for our lives.
Honestly, I feel like that is exactly what God is doing for me at this moment in my life. He is shaking me and molding me into who He has called me to be . Although it is difficult to truly understand His plan we must pray for understanding and learn to listen to the voice of God. We must adhere to His plans for our life in order to have that great future or expected end.