A Little Transparency
Hey everyone! I know that I have been MIA. Between full time classes, and full time work things have gotten a little overwhelming. In the midst of it all, God has remained faithful. He continues to answer prayers and show himself strong in my life. I am thankful.
On February 2nd, I turned 22. It was an amazing, but bittersweet day. When I was born, I was not breathing at all. Even the doctors counted me out, but God had a plan. No matter who counts you out, know that God will never leave you nor forsake you. In my 22 years of living, I have been through so much. I loved. I lost. I escaped life threatening situations. I was sexually assaulted. I was abused. I was lied to and cheated on. I was abandoned. I was suicidal. I had surgeries. I lost myself. I was angry. I was spiteful. I had a sharp tongue. I had low self-esteem. I have been through it all.
However, when I look back on all of those things and then some, I can truly say that I am blessed. During the times of brokenness and despair I truly learned my own strength. I learned that I was stronger than I thought. I learned that God was more than enough for me. I learned to be myself, and embrace all of my flaws. I learned that I was not always right, and that it is not what you say, but truly how you say it. Then, I learned that for years I was so concerned with being perfect, when everyone loved me just as I was. I learned how to love, and how I desire to be loved. I learned that there is nothing wrong with being alone.
Aging to me is one of the most beautiful things. As I have gotten older I have matured. I have overcome adversity time and time again. Because of all of the lessons that I learned, I am able to put things into perspective. I am able to push through, because I know that I have overcome worse. As I age, I become more and more excited about what God is doing in my life. I have learned to wake up and thank God for keeping me alive to do His work once again. I feel blessed, because I know that this year is bringing nothing but great things. God said it and I believe it. Be encouraged and know that God is a keeper.