I Am Who God Says I Am

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I wanted to share this song with you all that my mother wrote. Of course, it is not the finished version, but I know that it sure blessed me. I wanted to share this because often times, the devil will try to make you doubt yourself.  Know your worth. Know that you are precious in God’s sight. Know that He loves you and know that you are who He says that you are. I pray that this song will inspire you just as much as it inspires me.

 

Keep Going

Hello everyone,

I hope today finds you well. This school semester has been extremely tough. Taking  18 credit hours, and working full time has been a little more difficult than I imagined. However, I currently have a 3.8 GPA for the semester. Those straight As are looking promising. It is only because of God’s grace that I am still pushing through. My days and nights are both long, but it can be done.

Today, I encourage those of you who are pursuing your passions to keep going! Although I am tired and run down some days, I know that greater is in store for me. Frederick Douglass once said, “If there is no struggle, there is no progress.” This is very true. If you go back, and reflect on past events you should be able to identify some type of struggle. However, with that struggle probably came growth too. There is so much beauty in the struggle. One day when I have children, I will be able to encourage them to persevere by sharing my stories. They will be proud of their mom, and where she came from. The same goes for you, and your families. Leave behind a legacy that exemplifies hardwork, and determination. Remember nothing worth having comes easy. This degree in Political Science will not be easy to obtain, but definitely worth it.

Jackie

Just. Let. Go.

Often times we can get so caught up in the lives of others that we forget to prioritize our needs. All of my life I have helped others. I have assisted with homework, donations, transportation, and even babysitting. I have always been the one that people call on when they need things. However, when I call on them they are nowhere to be found.

Sometimes we have to learn that we can not save the world. Yes, our job is to love our neighbors as ourselves. That does not mean to let people walk all over you or take advantage of you. For some reason, people feel that I do not have feelings. They feel as though things do not hurt me, but honestly they do. I just keep quiet, and let God fight my battles. I have removed myself from situations that stunt my growth, and detached myself from one-sided friendships. Sometimes we have to learn to love people from a distance. We have to focus on us, and wait for God to place like-minded people in our lives. Be encouraged! Those healthy relationships are on the way.

Progress

Today, I am thankful. A few days ago I bought my first set of books for my Junior Year. Many of you do not know what I endured to get to this point. Words can not describe how blessed I feel to be here.

I remember leaving James Madison during the first semester of my Sophomore year. I had such a rough time there. I was sexually assaulted, and a constant victim of racism. At one point I was even suicidal. It was a lot, but I made it through. I had a true group of friends that taught me the importance of taking care of myself. Every life experience that I have gone through has helped me get to this point. Every struggle, disappointment, and heartache was worth it. Today, I am healthier than ever, not only mentally, but emotionally and spiritually as well. Did it happen overnight? Absolutely not, but through each and every trial I became a better me.

Often times we get so frustrated when we go through a storm, or when we are put through a test. Today, I encourage you to embrace the rain, and the storms. Learn to dance whether it’s raining or the sun is shining in your life. Each obstacle is apart of your story. These are growing pains that you are feeling. I know that they hurt, but never forget that the pain that you are feeling does not compare to the joy that is coming (Romans 8:18). Be encouraged!

Self Reflection

People really expect me to perfect. Well, I hate to break it to you but I am not perfect. Everyday I try my best to be the best woman that I can be. Unfortunately, I do not always get it right. In the past, I found it hard to live up to everyone’s expectations. I found it hard to admit when I was wrong. I even had a really bad attitude, which hurt many of those who were and still are apart of my life.

After a lot of self reflection, I realized that I had to make some changes. Some things were actually my fault. Not all, but some. We have to realize that we are imperfect people. On today I encourage you all to take 15 or 30 minutes to self reflect. Think about where you currently are, and where you want to be. Think about your attitude, and verbiage. Is it proper behavior for where you hope to be? Maybe it is, but maybe it is not. There is always room for improvement, and in order to grow you have to be able to reposition yourself. You have to be able to humble yourself. You have to be able to see your flaws. So again, take some time to self reflect today. You can thank me later.

Prayer for Today

Dear God,

Thank you! Thank you for another day. Thank you for new mercies. Thank you God for waking me up this morning, and clothing me in my right mind. Thank you for being God alone. Lord, I pray that you would forgive me for all of my sins. I pray that you would help me to walk upright. Help me to lead by example, and help my life line up with your will. God, please change my heart. Transform me into the woman (or man if you’re a guy) that you have called me to be. I want to be a light in the midst of darkness. I want to exemplify the fruits of the spirit so help me to be patient. Help me to be long suffering. Help me to have joy, even in sorrow. Help me to find peace in you Lord. Lord, bless this day. Bless my coming and my going. Bless all those that I will encounter on today. Help me to be a blessing to all those who know me. Have your way on today, and give me mountain moving faith. Lord, I love you and I believe you to do all that you have said that you would do. Thank you God for hearing my prayer on today.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

To my readers, I am so sorry for the lack of posts within the last few weeks. Life has been extremely crazy. I am so sorry to those of you who have been disappointed.  Sometimes, I get so overworked. I get caught up in what I do not see, rather than what God is doing right before my eyes. I get impatient and frustrated, and begin to question God just like everyone else. I am no different but on today, I challenge you to focus on God. Focus on the great things that are taking place in your lives. Work on being the best you that you can be, and when God is ready He will take care of the rest. We worry about things as if we can really control them. What will be will be, and you have to trust that God will make all things well. Be encouraged! God’s ways are not our ways.

No Losses, Only Lessons

Throughout life we face many obstacles and disappointments. Some worse than others. The important thing to remember is that there are no losses, but only lessons. Every situation that you go through is God preparing you for greater. Reflect on your past experiences, and I mean really reflect. Did you learn something? Did you grow some? I know that I did.

Leaving JMU, seemed like a loss for me at first. However, when I look back I realize that it was all a part of God’s plan to grow and stretch me. JMU showed me what my passion really was. Then there is the abusive situationship that I was in. For some that would be counted as a loss, but to me that was also a lesson. I learned that if a man hits you once, he will more then likely do it again. I learned that my job is not to save the world, and that you can only help those who want to be helped. Another lesson I learned is that abuse is not always physical, but it can be emotional and psychological as well. Since that situation, I have been able to help so many others walk away from abusive relationships. To me, it was a lesson worth learning.

Bad situations are only losses if you look at them that way rather than taking the lessons from them. Charlamagne Tha God said, “You have to embrace the process before you can reap the rewards.” This is extremely true. In order to really see God’s purpose you have to embrace the process. You can not get so caught up in questioning Him, but you have to be sure to trust Him. You have to learn how to look at the bigger picture, and grab on to what God needs you to get from each situation. With God there are no losses.

End of the Semester

The semester is finally over! Thank God! I have finished finals and I am feeling extremely accomplished. This semester was a little rough, but I am confident that the next one will be better. To all of you, who have more schooling to go keep pushing. We can do it! For the graduating Class of 2018 you have made it! I am so proud of all of you and where God is taking you. Be sure to continue to let God direct your paths. Let Him order your steps, and give you instructions on what to do next. To those attending Grad school, you can do it! You have already proven it by getting one degree. You can do anything that you set out to do. Be encouraged!

#TrustHimTuesday

Today I just want to encourage you all to be encouraged. Never forget that what you are going through is temporary. Learn to be content where you are until God transitions you into your new season. Often times when life is not going our way, we feel as though God has forgotten us. We throw pity parties, and often move into that “stinking thinking.” We forget about the million and one things that God has already done for us. We forget about how we cried about stuff in the past, and God answered those prayers too. Be encouraged! God is bigger than any circumstance or any situation that you are going through. How do I know? Glad you asked. I know because I have seen God take me from unemployed, to a full time job. I have watched him take me from sharing a car with my mom, to buying my own car. I have watched him make a way for me to go back to school when the odds were nowhere near in my favor. I have watched God show himself strong in my life time and time again. Of course I get frustrated. There are many nights that I lay awake crying, but if God did it before you better believe He will do it again. Trust God on today for all you are needful of. Be encouraged! He has it all under control.

Loneliness

Am I the only one who often feels lonely even in a room full of people?  Although I am a social butterfly, I constantly find myself in places of loneliness. I feel like the Black Sheep among  my peers, so I spend all my time focusing on school and work. Being alone can be a great thing, but also a very difficult thing as well. However, I have learned that I am never alone and neither are you.

God is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Joshua 13:5).  He is more than enough. He will comfort you, strengthen you, and love you when you feel unloved. There is no need to feel lonely and once you realize that God is all that you need you will no longer continue to feel empty . By walking with God, you have a constant friend. In your loneliness you must learn to value God’s presence. Loneliness is a shadow that often follows us and brings us to God’s light.

Just like us, Jesus was faced with loneliness. When Jesus was on that cross, He felt as though God had forsaken Him (Matthew 27:46). He felt abandoned and certainly lonely, but He knew that His greater was coming. He knew that paradise was awaiting Him, and His reward would be greater than His suffering. I type all of this to say, that loneliness hurts, but things will get better. Be encouraged! You have a God, that cares about your needs and concerns. He will never ever forsake you! Read More